Conner

http://www.ellenhopkins.com/Impulse.html

This poem was inspired by the book Impulse, about teenagers sent to a psychiatric hospital after they attempt suicide. What happens to Conner? Well, find out for yourself...

He seemed to have it all
He could have what he wanted
But no one would believe
The fears that kept him haunted
Like the women he loved
So different from other girls
The pressure from family
Left him the weight of the world
His sister, so pretty
He could never be like her
But nobody would care
Unless he got in Harvard
He pulled the trigger, but
He can't even do that right
They sent him to get help
But would they care if he died?
He met some great people
Again, he was admired
His parents sent homework
Intended they cared. Liars!
They took them all hiking
To pass obstacles again
As if life weren't enough
Last step: to climb the mountain
He's heard it all before
Negative noise in his head
He defies them, proves them wrong
Praise would still be left unsaid
He is above them all
Drugs can't get him high like this
They notice something's wrong
But they don't ask what it is
He's conquered the heartache
And he stares over the edge
He looks back one last time

And he steps over the edge