The First Spark

My creative side works in an interesting way.  I go through phases where I completely ignore my creative side and focus on more 'important' things - work, school, family, relationships, etc.  I go through happy times, rough times, times where I feel like I'm on top of the world, and times where I just want the world to stop.  You would think these things would spark some creativity in me - write a song about how happy you are, write a story about a hard time you went through, look to music as an escape from all the stress.  But no, I spend all my time dwelling on the moments of my life, trying to sink it all in, whether they are good or bad.

But every now and then, I get an opportunity to express myself creatively.  I find some time to work on a story, I get an opportunity to perform in a show, or something so troubling happens to me that I just HAVE to write it down and it ends up becoming a song or a short story.  I might just write a sentence or two, which turns into a paragraph, which turns into a full-blown venting session for me.  It releases all my negative emotions better than all that dwelling ever did.  I just wish I had more time to do things like this, let that one little creative spark turn into a beautiful fire.  I let myself become too distracted with everything else going on in my life.  I focus so much on my faults and waste so much time finding something I am good at that I forget the thing I'm best at - being creative.  It's nice to let ourselves go loose every once in a while, let go of all our baggage any way we can.  That's the thing about fires - they release energy and destroy everything in their path, but they sure are beautiful.