What Do You Want From Me?

Aside from my last few posts, it's been about five months since I've written anything for my blog. I've fallen into the pattern that most bloggers on this site fall into - not posting for a long time and blaming it on how "busy" they are.

So I've decided that I was not going to go another five months without posting something and then just end up writing a gloomy rant about an ex-boyfriend. But I've been sort of staring at the screen for quite some time now and found out why I really haven't posted anything in a while - I'm stuck.

It's not exactly writer's block. So much has happened in the last five or six months and writer's block has been the furthest thing from my mind. The real problem is I don't really know what my next post should be about. There is no specific topic I blog about. There are blogs that only focus on one thing; some people blog about personal experiences, some people post poems they've written, some people just post recipes, etc. My blog, however, has been sort of random - things I've written, rants I've gone on, things on my mind, etc.

What exactly do readers want from their favorite bloggers? We don't get asked this a lot, so now I'm asking you - what do you want?

Today

I've had enough of Today

Today has been very mean to me
Today is just all over the place
Today likes to pick on me
Today likes to see me at my worst
Today keeps kicking me when I'm down
Today doesn't seem to be getting any better
Today keeps messing up
Today can't do anything right
Today just wants to point out all my mistakes
Today makes the same mistakes over and over again
Today is hopeless
Today is endless

I just want Today to end
Maybe Tomorrow will be better

Obliviate

For the 2010-2011 New Year's Eve (or NYE if you're annoying) I spent it at my boyfriend's house with some friends of his. Usually I don't like New Year's Eve because I'm either single or spending it alone, so this one was definitely one of my better New Year's Eves (and it was the first time I was ever kissed at midnight, that was pretty cool).

Meanwhile, my parents went out to a party while my sisters stayed home. My parents came home at around 10 (at their age, New Year's isn't one of those things they want to stay out until one in the morning for). When they came home, they had their own little celebration going on when the clock struck midnight. They fooled around with silly New Year's hats and streamers and took dorky pictures together.

I have to say, despite all the fun I had at the party I went to, it was a little sad to see my family celebrating in pictures without me there. It just made me think of how many other family activities I might have to miss out on now that I'm getting older. What if I can't go on family vacations because of work? What if I can't go to a social event with my family because of school? What if I decide to hang out with my friends on a day that my family decides to have a fun lazy Sunday doing nothing but playing board games? (Trust me, my family can make board games fun.) It's amazing how much more I love my family when I start missing out on the things we could do together.

Sorry, I'm not trying to sound depressing or anything. This is teaching me to cherish my family more and realize just how much they do for me. And I know they weren't unhappy that I wasn't there with them on New Year's - they wouldn't want me to miss out on my first New Year's kiss.