Just another one of those nights

Right now it's about 7:45 at night on Jan. 1, but it feels like the night I had two nights ago. Let me explain.
I'm not a big fan of my basement. There really isn't much down there. Basically it's a laundry room, a bathroom, a TV no one really watches, an elliptical, and a treadmill. Usually basements are a lot bigger and have like big-screen TVs, a nice sofa, a big table, sometimes a pool table, etc.
However, a lot has happened down here for me. You see, half the time I come down there is when I'm very angry with my family. I've cried, vented, screamed, slammed things, and even panicked down there.
Well two nights ago, I was doing the laundry down there and I guess some stuff was coming back to me. One thing I remembered was Christmas when my mom yelled at me from the other side of the house about how I didn't do the laundry right. I didn't want that to ruin my holidays (if I did, I'd feel awful, which was the last thing I wanted on Christmas).
One remembrance led to another and I got so angry out of nowhere. I knew I felt angry by the way I was breathing and how I pretty much stormed upstairs to slam the laundry basket on my parents' bed. After I calmed down a bit, my whole body went numb and I felt dizzy. Then, of course, we had dinner together (sometimes my sisters and I will eat at the bar while my mom and stepdad eat on the other side of the living room on the couch; this time was at the table).
Tonight wasn't much different. Again, I felt angry (I was also listening to Three Days Grace, not my best idea), felt dizzy afterwards, and saw our table set up to have everyone eat together.
This happens before. Sometimes I get dizzy after I'm angry, but it hasn't happened in a while. Plus, this happened so randomly and kind of fast.
While I'm on the topic, there is a difference between mad and angry: Mad is in-the-moment, angry is about the past and almost bitter (not that it's always a bad kind of bitter).
So while it's January 1, it kind of feels like December 30.